its been more than a month now. he is gone, but i can’t help myself from thinking of him. i keep on telling myself that he is still around, with the fact that he is away in Lumut, or Labuan.
i miss him. he used to tell me how he loves his life in Sheffield, and how he encourage me to accept the offer to Buckingham, so that he can come visit me often. i miss him calling me for lunch, and how he craving for the Tony Romas. i miss him. i miss him calling me on the weekends nights, middle of the night, out of nowhere and wanted to fetch me for coffee or drugs. hahaha.. above it all, i miss him. i just miss him so badly!
i miss the way he talk. when he talk, he talks in a fast pace. very fast! and the way he always have his earphone to keep the music playing, and the way he loves his shades. he walk fast, and he always sweat. oh, how i miss him!
i can’t help myself from google his name. to find all his pictures and stories or pages. i keep on digging my albums to find his pictures. i keep on looking at messages he sent me, emails and others. i miss him, dearly, so badly..
new year is just around the corner.. i am so regret that last year’s celebration i turned him down. and now, i keep on sending him long text to his email and facebook inbox, although i knew he will never read, not to mention reply.
i hope you are well up there.
al-fatehah
